Return of the Ted

Well, here we are again. A new year, a new blog, and a somewhat changed Teddy. The last year has been really eventful politically, and for me socially and somewhat academically. I'd go into details, but I'd be here all day. So, that aside, on to what I need to talk about.

Let's just go with New Years. I didn't make any resolutions per se, but I have made several decisions. The first of course is cliched, i.e. getting back in shape. However, I would like to emphasize the BACK portion of that statement. I have to remember that this is not some unobtainable goal, but something I had once, that I can get back, that can be replaced. Hopefully my new room-mate will be helpful in this endeavor. I must admit one struggle in my life is self-motivation. I think I need outside influence and judgment.

Anyhow, the other decision is to stop being such a tool at times. While being lazy can make you get out of shape, you can get that back. Being a tool makes it nigh on impossible to maintain, or even worse, have to REGAIN a friendship. That being said, I had a wonderful New Years, except for a few minor parts which are, undoubtedly, entirely my own fault. Things don't always work out the way I (or anyon) want them to, and instead of being bitter, or resentful (frequently my basic fall-back emotions), I need to appreciate what was good, and what still is good. A close friend of mine recently made what I believe to be an astute observation part of what makes me the way I am. I am a series of contradictions, one of which as many people know is an opposition to marriage (somewhat in general, but more specifically as it relates to myself), and a willingness to be in undefined or sometimes "open" relationships. However, things tend to contradict and self-destruct due to the fact that when I become attached to someone, it's very intense and powerful which ineherently conflicts with how I WANT to conduct myself. Anyhow, that's enough for today. I have moving to finish up. Until next time: Don't be a tool.